So today I went shopping for my sister's Christmas presents and presents for myself. Yeah, how the hell does that work? Well, basically, Mom gave me a couple of hundred dollar bills and told me to "get [your] ass in Gamestop and go buy your goddamn presents - I'm tired of looking like an idiot in that store." I took Dezy and we went inside. The guys inside Gamestop were pretty cool, I found all of my stuff - Birth by Sleep and KH: Days anyway, didn't find FF X - and Dezy found Pokepark Wii and Pokemon: Guardian Signs but we didn't find Super Paper Mario.

I was hesitant to ask anyone 'cause I've heard horror stories about shitty service at Gamestop, but the guy who helped us was a total bro. When I told him the game was for my sister, he was like, "Don't worry, we'll find Mario!" And he made a big deal acting like a goofball in front of my sister looking for the game on the shelves, talking in this really bad Italian accent all the while. I've never encountered someone so goddamn goofy in my entire life, but Dezy thought he was hilarious as all hell. Anyway, we still didn't find it, and all he did was waste our time, really, but Dezy didn't seem to mind. She really loves the Mario RPG series and we never did get around to buying Super Paper Mario, so I really hope we find it... Mom kind of rolled her eyes and was like, "You should think of another game, then." But I'll just ask Dad if we can keep looking for it, she really wants that game and this is the only time of year we can actually get video games, so I really wanna find it for her...

Later we went to Walmart and I snuck a Nintendo Power magazine in the cart. By the time mom noticed, it was already rung up, so +1 points for me! There was a huge Kingdom Hearts article in this edition, and it talks mostly about re:Coded and KH 3D. Yeah, KH: 3D, another goddamn spinoff. Why, Nomura, why? Why can't you just make a goddamn sequel to KH II? Would that really be so hard? I'm looking at the screenshots from the game (like, there's only four pictures) and I see Twilight Thorn in Traverse Town, Sora and Riku in Destiny Islands, and Riku running around Traverse Town, all in their KH I outfits. Yay for rehashed bosses... Anyway, in the interview, Nomura said that in the E3 trailer, the sky was "raining Soras" which makes my mind bleed. Does it connect with the KH I opening, how Sora saw himself falling from the sky? (Wasn't that a goddamn dream though?) And why do characters have to fall dramatically in KH games anyway...

Also, about re:Coded... Nomura, who the hell told you that you could turn KH into a puzzle game? I just cannot play puzzle games, puzzles are not fun. In most Pokemon games, whenever it came time to go down the Victory Road, I'd pull up an online walkthrough 'cause I sure as hell wasn't gonna sit around for hours solving strength puzzles... In Zelda games, it takes me forever to progress when there's some tricky puzzle, and I won't touch Professor Layton games with a ten foot pole. I don't want to solve puzzles, puzzles are not fun! So, I do not want to play a KH game where I must solve puzzles! This should be very simple logic, Nomura! Oh, and another thing - apparently, you don't play as Sora, but you play as a "Data Form" of Sora, who acts differently than Sora would. 'Kay, so... what's the point of playing as Sora? Why don't we just play as Roxas then - whoops, he's "dead."

The horrible thing is that one day I will eventually buy this game when it's gone down to like $20 at Gamestop, or something...
(That's what I did with KH: Days anyway.)

Blah, whatever. I'm going to go sit down and watch anime, and no one can stop me! Seriously, I've missed like 3+ episodes of Star Driver, and I need my weekly dosage of GALACTIC PRETTY BOI. And I'm also watching Togainu no Chi, which is this gay anime (literally) that has really bad animation. It's one of those "so bad it's good" sort of deals, except it's not really good but hilariously good but really bad... Lol, I don't know! ... I JUST LIKE WATCHING IT OKAY. . Like, everyone is a guy in this anime, and everyone secretly wants to bone the main dude, but no one ever does. DO IT ALREADY. BE A MAN. A MANLY MAN.

Okay, okay, I'm going! That's like, two blog posts in a day, I know, I'm horrible ... I JUST HAVE A LOT TO SAY.

I love how whenever I'm at all, I'll think of all the things I have to do when I get home, and then when I get home, I don't do jack. I have a test tomorrow in human development, and this is me not really giving a damn! Seriously, I really don't want to do anything anymore, I want senior year to be over and done with, I want my senior project to be magically finished, I want it to be Christmas so I can play FF XIII, Fable III, and all the other games I asked for... I also crave mass amounts of sugary, chocolatey food for some reason. These blueberry cereal bars are going to have to do.

Today, I had this crazy urge to start roleplaying again. I've had this urge since Saturday really, but hell if there's ever going to be a place for me to roleplay as Riku again. I talked to razzberree about it, and we came to the conclusion that there's literally nowhere for a KH RP to be had, so if we want one, we'd have to make our own. Then we started talking about all the characters we could be roleplaying in a KH RP... Man, I miss playing Roxas, Riku, Kadaj, Zack, Larxene, Denzel... Bah, is it really so hard for there to be one quality KH roleplay out there? We then started lulzing around with ideas for a roleplay, but when it came to actually starting the thread, I was totally lost as to how the thread should be started. Like, these sorts of things used to come easy for me, but I haven't roleplayed in about two months now, since late September, I'd say.

The last character I made for a roleplay was a man by the name of Zacharias Moliére. He was French, a former cop turned hairdresser who was very delicate and fragile in demeanor. He was the sort of person who'd break under harsh words, but would put up a tough facade if it meant standing strong in front of the people he loved. He was very athletic and was trained in ju-jitsu (as a form of martial arts, for his past police days) but despite everything, he was very breakable on the inside. He was also very paranoid and bit his nails frequently.

A good thread I had on that forum with him was Zach talking to a priest about the horrible things he'd done, and the priest, in the middle of the thread sort of looked up at him and asked, "I believe the only sins you've ever committed lay in your heart." Or something like that. Heck if I remember. It was a good thread! I left the board because of drama, though. I was making fun of this fourteen year old who got pissed at me because something I said made him lose "the game" or whatever. God, I can't stand people who make a bunch of fuss over nothing....

Ahh, but yeah, I have good memories with roleplaying in general, but it's like, really hard to get a thread going. And now that I've stopped roleplaying for so long, I'm not sure if I can do it again! I want to write more with Zach, I want to KH roleplay, I want to make a crapload of characters and just toss them in crazy situations... but have I forgotten how? I hope not! I really hope not... I think I just need to get my feet wet in the field again! But I'm not going back to roleplaying with the masses on Proboards, hell no. I used to be addicted to that shit. 

I also think I should take these urges and just learn to write fanfiction if I can't get a roleplaying fix. Maybe I'll make an AO3 account to place my fanfiction in... I've been ignoring my want to write fanfiction for a while now, but I don't think I'm going to any longer. I won't upload it to devART, no, that's just for original stuff only. I just need to learn to write more! If you can't roleplay, then write, Kiri, write! You haven't really picked anything to work on since you finished Nightingale, you should be ashamed of yourself!

Speaking of devART, it's almost time for my monthly blog update back over there... Man, what have I accomplished since the beginning of Nov? Nothing! Well, I finished Nightingale, but would I even have written that if razzberree wasn't so amped to see it? It just goes to show that I write better when I know someone will read it! That's why I love roleplaying - when you write, someone is anticipating your post with bated breath, and better yet, they'll respond to it!

Anyway, I need to sort out what the hell I'm doing with myself... It's not like I even have time to worry about all this shit either, senior project's due on the fifteenth of December!

Halloween suddenly rolled around the corner without me even knowing it! I don't really celebrate it, to be honest - hell, I rarely celebrate anything unless it involves me getting presents. And even then, that's not me "celebrating," that's just me reaping the benefits of a holiday. There's nothing to reap from Halloween though - you don't get candy unless you dress up in some heinous costume and beg strangers, going from door to door... Too much work! Just buy candy from a store and eat it, huh? After Halloween, the price of candy gets slashed right in half too - so there, you can have your Hersheys bars and eat 'em, too! I guess I'm not very spirited when it comes to matters like this - we didn't even buy candy for Trick 'o Treaters this year. Mom says it's because she didn't want me sneaking my way into the candy, and I guess that's a good enough reason. Yeah, I can see myself gorging on candy if we had any of it in the house - lately, I've had an incurable appetite, I've always got the munchies!

Last night, I took two strawberry cereal bars and piled some ice cream on top of it while watching anime - Togainu no Chi, to be in fact. Man, little things like that, just having a snack while kicking back on a Saturday night and watching anime, I'll never forget it! To others, I guess little things like that are trivial memories, but me just having fun is the best thing I can ask for out of life, really. When I think back to my summer, all I did really was play video games, watch anime, and read manga, and hell, I had a great time! I read some really great titles (Akumetsu, Ikigami) watched some classic anime (Elfen Lied, Gantz) and played some fun as hell games (Tales of Vesperia, Harvest Moon: Animal Parade). Sure, maybe I wasn't very productive, but can't a girl just sit back and enjoy what she wants to do? Especially now that five days out of the seven day week I'm busy as all hell. Even today, a Sunday, I was busy! Writing my research report for Human Development wasn't an easy task, especially when your group members aren't very cooperative...

I am still recovering from my system restore. I just re-downloaded iTunes today, and I have to restart my music collection all over again. I've no idea where I should start first when it comes to this sort of thing, to be honest. Currently, I just have really awesome Soul Eater soundtracks from the OST, but hopefully my little music collection can grow big, just like it used to be before the restore. Man, I've been so much more paranoid about the Internet ever since the restore. I'm just lucky that things turned out okay, really. I still don't know what kind of virus infected it. All I know was that it was a program called shell.exe. How did it get on my computer? What did I do wrong? I still really don't know... All I can hope for is that it never happens again.

Also, before I forget, I finally got my cubes from storycubes !
( In which Kiri shows off her cubes and brainstorms )


Man, I can't even believe tomorrow's Monday already. Where does the weekend go?

Ahh, I'm so tired!

My cousin Enrique (Ricky) came over today, and wow, it was such a pleasant surprise! I hadn't talked to him in ages, and the only way I'd know about anything going on in his life was by hearing it from mom and dad, gossiping to each other. Anyway, he'd been doing fine, although I think he's going to drop out of school and go into the military. You know, I don't blame him for it. A tuition that's 100% paid for is definitely nothing to sneeze at! I'd do it, if I weren't such a wimp, if I was disciplined a little more... Anyway, we played some Wii games, like New Super Mario Bros and Super Mario Sluggers, and it felt just like old times.

Hard to believe that he's already twenty! It doesn't feel like he's so old, I'm taller than him and I'm only seventeen. I just hope that we can stay good friends like this. I don't really want him to go away either. He was going to go away for college (to New York) but mom talked him out of it, and told him that we'd support him if he ever needed someone to fall on. He's got his family, sure, but he wanted to leave to New York to get away from them. Sometimes I feel guilty, wondering, are we the only reason why he's still here? Did we accidentally chain him down? But I don't think that's true. I don't think we are important enough to chain him down here. There must've been another reason why he decided to stay.

When he left, I gave him a huge hug and told him to come over any time. Every day, people say nice things to others, without really ever meaning it. The types who ask how you are without even really caring to hear the full details really, the kind who say, "If you ever need anything, I'll be there," without ever really meaning to offer you help and protection. But when I told him to come over any time, I really meant it, I really did. I don't know how I could've emphasized it, but I just hope he takes up on the offer. He is probably one of the few members of my extended family that I really care about, and my heart goes out to him.

It's been a long day. I've been redownloading old programs and I've decided not to worry about my anime collection too much. Right now I'm just downloading the newest episodes that I need to see, and I guess I'll rebuild my collection from there. I also plan to get more active in devtArt this weekend, and apply to more groups, even though I already requested to join one (Live-Love-Write) and I still haven't been accepted. I also have to call the freelancer (I was supposed to do that Thursday...) to talk about the Hatian musician coming to my school on Friday and talk about possibly covering it, and put a serious dent in my human development essay. So much to do, but today, I'm not worrying about a thing. Go with the flow, that's what I say.