Ahh, I'm so tired!

My cousin Enrique (Ricky) came over today, and wow, it was such a pleasant surprise! I hadn't talked to him in ages, and the only way I'd know about anything going on in his life was by hearing it from mom and dad, gossiping to each other. Anyway, he'd been doing fine, although I think he's going to drop out of school and go into the military. You know, I don't blame him for it. A tuition that's 100% paid for is definitely nothing to sneeze at! I'd do it, if I weren't such a wimp, if I was disciplined a little more... Anyway, we played some Wii games, like New Super Mario Bros and Super Mario Sluggers, and it felt just like old times.

Hard to believe that he's already twenty! It doesn't feel like he's so old, I'm taller than him and I'm only seventeen. I just hope that we can stay good friends like this. I don't really want him to go away either. He was going to go away for college (to New York) but mom talked him out of it, and told him that we'd support him if he ever needed someone to fall on. He's got his family, sure, but he wanted to leave to New York to get away from them. Sometimes I feel guilty, wondering, are we the only reason why he's still here? Did we accidentally chain him down? But I don't think that's true. I don't think we are important enough to chain him down here. There must've been another reason why he decided to stay.

When he left, I gave him a huge hug and told him to come over any time. Every day, people say nice things to others, without really ever meaning it. The types who ask how you are without even really caring to hear the full details really, the kind who say, "If you ever need anything, I'll be there," without ever really meaning to offer you help and protection. But when I told him to come over any time, I really meant it, I really did. I don't know how I could've emphasized it, but I just hope he takes up on the offer. He is probably one of the few members of my extended family that I really care about, and my heart goes out to him.

It's been a long day. I've been redownloading old programs and I've decided not to worry about my anime collection too much. Right now I'm just downloading the newest episodes that I need to see, and I guess I'll rebuild my collection from there. I also plan to get more active in devtArt this weekend, and apply to more groups, even though I already requested to join one (Live-Love-Write) and I still haven't been accepted. I also have to call the freelancer (I was supposed to do that Thursday...) to talk about the Hatian musician coming to my school on Friday and talk about possibly covering it, and put a serious dent in my human development essay. So much to do, but today, I'm not worrying about a thing. Go with the flow, that's what I say.