(Kiri, you missed blogging on Friday and on Saturday! The nerve of you!)

Sorry, I haven't had time to blog, I've been too busy being an magnificent BADARSE. (Yes, I know this is the second time I've called myself a badass in a blog post, shush!) Basically, I spent all weekend finishing up my latest Pridea rewrite, which turned into a rewrite of a whole chapter, Nightingale. Maybe I'll post it up on Dreamwidth later, but you can read it on my devART already, so I don't really see the point of reposting. Anyway, I basically tackled and triumphed over my worst fear when it comes to Pridea, and that was writing in Orpheus' perspective. Most of the novel is from Pridea's point of view, but in Part II, I recently decided (about two months ago, when I posted up Quality Control) that I'd branch out and write chapters from different characters' points of view.

I was scared to do this with Mr. Rockstar 'cause he's not really my character, but after I got the hang of it, it turned into this marvelous chapter that I'm really proud of, and it's really amped up my inspiration to get Pridea rockin' and on the ball. Sure, I still have no idea how it'll end, but if I keep pumping out rewrites and working on sprucing up the stuff I have, and filling in the holes that need filling (in order to make Nightingale work, for example, I broke a crucial part of my own canon - but I like how it worked, so I'm just going to patch up the canon I broke - it shouldn't affect too much of the world an anyway) and just have fun along the way. I'm not in a rush to finish Pridea - before I was, but now, I'm just going to have fun. I don't know how it all ends, and I'm kind of scared for the day when that ending comes to me, but when it does - and it will come - I'll embrace it and actually start working toward the end. In the meantime, I'll keep writing excerpts and if I need to, take breaks with other non-Pridea related projects on the way, and no matter what, keep writing!

The more I write, the easier it is for me to do. I hope that I can keep writing and producing things that I'm proud enough to put up on devART - instead of taking 9 month hiatuses between everything I post. Hell no is that happening again. I think I've grown a lot when it comes to writing - I realize that hell, I'm real different from a lot of the other writers on devART, and that's okay. Why? A lot of the other writers on devART don't have anything I like reading. They get tons of comments and favorites, and I think I've finally begun to realize that I'm not writing for a tangible audience right now, and even if no one comments on my work, I'm fine with that, because I know I'm good at what I do, and that's all there is to it! Plus, razzberree compared my writing to Francesca Lia Block - and really, what better complement is that? I've looked for her books everywhere and I haven't been able to find them - not my library, the school library or Borders. Maybe I'll try Barnes and Nobles, next? Or Amazon.com, whenever I'm able to buy things online... God, my eighteenth birthday cannot come any faster!

I'm still reading Bag of Bones. It's more like a bag of shit, really.
I think I'm reading the wrong Stephen King books. I want to get my hands on a copy of It, The Stand, Carrie the Dark Tower series, Pet Semetary, something! I only have access to these really lame books and it makes my head want to explode. I'm going to keep reading, for now, but if I have to hear this guy complain one more time about how he misses his wife and the great head she used to give, this book is going to end up in a bag of trash. (Except not really, I'll just return it, but... still!)

(Kiri, what are you working on next?)
Ahh, I don't know!

I know I'm not going to particpate in areyougame UNLESS by tomorrow I can think of an outline for that Sephiroth fanfic I was going to do. I have ONE DAY, and if I don't think of something then tough noodles, I have better fish to fry anyway. I don't know why I joined the comm in the first place - probably because I've always wanted to try my hand at either writing from Sephiroth's point of view or write about Yuri and Flynn's struggle in Tales of Vesperia. I probably won't, because I've got a great momentum here and there's tons of other stuff I want to work on.

Right now, I want to work on OrigFic Bingo from my brainstorm notes and see if I can get in at least one Bingo before November ends. If I do, I'll probably end up working on either the blue, green or orange plots, if anything. I'll probably work on the blue - the character in the blue plot is someone I once fleshed out for a roleplay and then left because ... well, there was nothing to do there. I do miss him, so maybe I'll do that? Even then, bingo's just a side project anyway.

For Pridea, I'm not sure which excerpt to work on next. It'll either be based on someone from the Paracissians, Mikki, or Jayke. I'm kind of leaning towards Jayke here. ...What, why not? He's smexy, and everyone loves super smexy Jayke! I'm thinking I either want to do: 1.) his confrontation with Trent where he learns about the nanocams, 2.) where Selena first visits him and he realizes that she isn't dead or 3.) where Orpheus first meets Jayke and he lays down the ropes and gives him his "blessing." Only thing is that from the third possible rewrite scenario, I already rewrote parts of it from the Nightingale excerpt. Either way, they're all pretty sweet ideas!

In the end, I still have no idea what I'm working on! This is typical Kiri behavior, isn't it?
I can ramble on about something for three paragraphs and still not come to a conclusion...

When I set my mind to make something badass, I MAKE IT BADASS. I make it so badass that my eyes bleed from the badassery levels of my own creations! ... Alright, I'm going to shut up about it now, but long story short - I sat down and decided that I short really make some progress on my Lit/Art trade and suddenly it bloomed into a really sweet excerpt/rewrite.

But that's all I'm saying about it! If I hype it up too much, I'll just pull a Peter Molyneux and it won't be as cool when it's done - like a certain game in the Fable series that I could mention - so yeah, I'm just gonna say that I like where this is going. I took a break from it for now because ... well, to be honest, I know how I want it to end but I'm not sure how to get there. And I'm wondering if I can squeeze a super secret character in or not. (Kind of like how Ash sees Ho-Oh in the first episode of Pokemon? Like, a teaser for things to come...) Either way, I have the ending planned out (it's not really an ending since it's an excerpt but... I know where I should stop writing and actually upload the excerpt) so it's gonna have a neat finish no matter what, I just gotta get there.

I've been doing something different with this piece - I've been sketching it out at school and then adding layers onto its 'skeleton' if you will at home. (Yeah, I have time to do stuff like that at school - easy breezy senior year for the win.) I've gotta say, I really like this way of doing things. Once I get out of school, I think I'd be the sort to sit in coffee shops or librariesand just write out skeletons for things - it's a lot easier to sketch out how a story will go when you're out in public for some reason. I'm not sure why. Ugh, makes me so anxious to get a car, get a job, get money, just be independent, so I could just go out there and sit somewhere and write without being bothered my mom, dad, etc...

Speaking of libraries, I checked out Bag of Bones by Stephen King from the library the other day without much of a reason really. I just wanted something to read - I'm supposed to be reading Fellowship of the Ring but to be honest, it's proving really hard to catch my attention. So I checked out the book, right, and the librarian said that she had to stop reading it because of something graphic in it - but she wouldn't tell me what it was. I haven't read very far in it, but I'm kind of bored by this book too. A guy's wife dies, he starts talking about how much he misses her, etc... He was also an author (the... the guy in the book, not Stephen King - well he's an author too, but yeah) so he just talked on and on about how much books he wrote and the happy life he led and blah blah blah I'm bored! And I don't really need an anecdote about how every time you and your wife had sex. Christ - in the first chapter alone he talked about sex ever two pages, I swear. Why do books bore me so much nowadays?!

I just want a good book to read that isn't boring as hell! Is that too much to ask? There's a ton of books I want to read but our school library and city library sucks big time. I don't really read young adult fiction - all of that's cluttered up with shitty Twilight spinoffs and I don't really have any patience for that. I think for my birthday I'll just ask Dad to take me to Borders and I'll splurge my allowance on buying a ton of thick fantasy books that'll take me a while to get through. I haven't bought books since two summers ago, and that, to me, is way too long to go without a new book.

In unrelated news, I've been watched way too many Crisis Core videos lately. I have a bunch of songs stuck in my head, most of them by 30 Seconds to Mars - like "I'll Attack" and "This is War" - but "This is War" has been stuck in my head ever since I beat Dragon Age really. I updated my listography with a list of songs I really need to put on my iPod because of it - I'll swipe 'em later, but not now. Ugh, I can't wait for the weekend - I'm gonna finish my Pridea excerpt and then sit down with a bunch of frickin' video games and just start playing and goofing off. See, senior year can be easy if you let it be. Hopefully I can keep cruising on through the year without any more bumps in the road.