This is take three of me trying to keep a blog, starting all over again. I was doing pretty well with my old Blogger, and admittedly, one of the main reasons I'm starting over here, at Dreamwidth, is because I really like having a bigger variety of layouts to choose from — that, and I love using userpics. Man, I missed icons hard when I was over in Blogger, and I know it's a pretty shallow reason to switch platforms, but it's true. That, and I really like this, well, dream, that Dreamwidth has, of becoming a community for artists sorts. I'd be nice to have a community other than DeviantArt to post my writing, so I'm looking forward to adjusting to this new blog, settling down, and just posting whatever the hell I want— drabbles, short stories, chaptered works... I'm pretty excited about it, really, so here's to breaking in a brand new blog!

One thing, however, that I did like about my old Blogger was that I was totally raw and uncensored there— I posted whatever the hell I want and left it public, I didn't care who read it. I'm gonna do that again, 'cause really, when I had a friends only blog (back at Livejournal) I was this total sleeze who'd only ramble about what I figured people wanted to hear nstead of getting what I really wanted to say off my chest. And when I was trying to talk about how I felt, I always watered myself down and never really got everything I wanted to say out in the open. I'll be glad if I make friends here, honestly, but I never want to surround myself in a community that forgets that, hello, we're here to blog, remember? I've been keeping journals since before blogs even existed, and I've always, always, always wanted to stay true to myself. I did that excellently back in Blogger, which was easier to do, I think, because Blogger's community is not as big as LJ's due to the lack of communities (which some people may disagree with me on, but I think it's true) but even here, the most important thing to remember is to never censor myself.

Livejournal— I'm so glad to be away from, now. I mean, it's a good community if you wanna yank icons, and I've been in a pretty decent writing comm. there or two, but sheesh, a lot of it is so full of wank and drama. Especially in fandom communities. I don't think anything could ever let me try and fit in with a fandom, 'cause it'll never happen. I was a crazy fangirl when I was thirteen, nowadays I look at communities dedicated to discussing their favorite anime, manga, movie, whatever, and cringe.

But that's cool— I'm here now, on a little oasis where I doubt things like that will happen. It's a naive dream, I think, to hope for a drama-free world, but I honestly think that if it can happen anywhere, it'd probably be here.

Ever since I started this blog (two days ago, or so) I've been trying to get back into writing. A while ago I just disappeared from all the roleplays I'm supposed to be a part of, so now I'm trying to ease my way back in. It hasn't been easy, because I've just dragged myself away from Livejournal after seriously thinking about being part of their roleplayers community, and deciding that it definitely isn't the place for me. Again, too much wangst, drama and serious business. I figure, before I even start attempting any short stories or anything, it'd be best to get myself situated in my roleplays again., starting posting and apologizing for all the people I left hanging, haha... As much as I hate to admit it, I'm a roleplayer to the core, but it's an addiction I'm sometimes too lazy to even get a fix of. I'm pretty sure this pisses a lot of my roleplaying partners off though...

This is probably just me stalling though: I need to start writing, not threading. After all, NaNo is coming up soon, and I'm not sure if I'm even going to be able to participate this year. I've got senior project to worry about— that, and my manuscript that I wrote in the NaNo of 2008, Pridea, still hasn't been finished/edited yet, and I promised myself I wouldn't join until I finished that. God, I'm such a procrastinator. I gotta get moving, but I always have excuse after excuse... That doesn't seem to be anything new with me, though.