Kiri
10 November 2010 @ 11:05 am
to accept your fate is not weak, just realistic  
Ugh, I'm missing a lot of blogging todays! If I had really participated in NaNoBloPo, I definitely would have failed, epically. Can you do it every month? I kind of wanted to try doing it in December... but I doubt I'd do that, either.

I mean, it'd be December, and while I don't really have much of a life, I'll be way too busy playing Fable III to blog! And Final Fantasy XIII. And I kind of want to buy Bioshock too, while i'm at it, and then that's it! Or maybe Assassin's Creed 2? Uggh, I don't know - I have one more spot to fill up on my X-Mas list and I'm not really sure what to put there. Maybe when I get more time at home I'll make a list of sorts? (Oh god, that'll be fun, listing every game I've ever wanted that is dirt cheap right now... Believe me, there are a lot!

Last night I didn't blog because I had to stay up late writing journal entries for my senior project mentor hours. I should probably mention that I'm updating in my senior project class again. Yeah, I don't plan on making a habit of this, it's just really easier this way! Plus, I'm bored, so why not? So far I've got nine hours out of the fifteen that I need, which is pretty sweet, really. Just six more hours to go! To be honest, I'm going to really miss working with the freelancer - he's a really nice guy, actually! He told me that I shouldn't worry - applying to CCRI, spending your freshie and soph years there and then transferring to URI is the cheapest and easiest way to do things. I'm not going to worry about that anymore - I'm just going to get my letters of recommendation from my Latin teach and my guidance counselors and then apply to CCRI. I can use freshie and soph years to learn how to drive and get a driver's license, and get a job to save up to pay for books, school supplies, etc. I'm going to apply to all the scholarships I can for some cash to pay of classes, and see where things go from there.

The future is not ideal. If I had a choice, I'd much rather be a lazy author that stays at home and worries about book deadlines rather than article deadlines, but life is not rainbows and sugar and unicorns. Why do I keep insisting on dissenting and resisting when I don't have any other plan for the future to run to? This is the best choice, I know it is. And I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy politics. I'd be lying if I said I didn't like sitting in a city council meeting and taking notes on the mayor's loosing speech as people boo him from the crowd and call him all sorts of names - then go home and sit in front of the computer and work on writing the article that everyone'll see. I am a journalist. I am a journalist.

BUT I am also a writer, and holy shit have I been procrastinating on a ton of crap! I'm supposed to be writing my Always Motivated piece for 'cookie' that I think I blogged about on Monday, and I'm also working on a Pridea rewrite/excerpt, where Selena takes Chex to meet 'the face of the government' for the first time. Too much, too much to do!
 
 
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