13 February 2011 @ 02:21 pm
flipping off poseidon and then going for a swim  
Yo! Guess who's been playing FF13? Could it be... KIRI!? Well, duh, who else!

My birthday isn't until the 15th, but I got my present early (since my birthday's on a school day this year, gross...) which was a 32" TV! Thanks, Dad! I was supposed to get a new rolly-chair too, but shit happens, but hell, who's complaining? No, I didn't get FF13 for my birthday - I got it for Christmas, actually, but I heard that the graphics in this game were beast, so I decided to wait until my birthday to play it. I've been meaning to talk about the video games I've been playing for a while now, but I just never got around to it... BUT, I finally finished Disc 1 of FF13 (which didn't take too long, actually... but I heard the other discs are way longer, which is a relief) so I figured, what better time to talk about my first impressions of the game?

In which Kiri gives her analysis of FFXIII: Disc One... )

(Hopefully this game isn't longer than Tales of Vesperia - I still haven't beaten that goddamn game....)
Current Mood: sick
03 December 2010 @ 10:04 pm
i really don't need anymore spinoffs 'kay thanks  
So today I went shopping for my sister's Christmas presents and presents for myself. Yeah, how the hell does that work? Well, basically, Mom gave me a couple of hundred dollar bills and told me to "get [your] ass in Gamestop and go buy your goddamn presents - I'm tired of looking like an idiot in that store." I took Dezy and we went inside. The guys inside Gamestop were pretty cool, I found all of my stuff - Birth by Sleep and KH: Days anyway, didn't find FF X - and Dezy found Pokepark Wii and Pokemon: Guardian Signs but we didn't find Super Paper Mario.

I was hesitant to ask anyone 'cause I've heard horror stories about shitty service at Gamestop, but the guy who helped us was a total bro. When I told him the game was for my sister, he was like, "Don't worry, we'll find Mario!" And he made a big deal acting like a goofball in front of my sister looking for the game on the shelves, talking in this really bad Italian accent all the while. I've never encountered someone so goddamn goofy in my entire life, but Dezy thought he was hilarious as all hell. Anyway, we still didn't find it, and all he did was waste our time, really, but Dezy didn't seem to mind. She really loves the Mario RPG series and we never did get around to buying Super Paper Mario, so I really hope we find it... Mom kind of rolled her eyes and was like, "You should think of another game, then." But I'll just ask Dad if we can keep looking for it, she really wants that game and this is the only time of year we can actually get video games, so I really wanna find it for her...

Later we went to Walmart and I snuck a Nintendo Power magazine in the cart. By the time mom noticed, it was already rung up, so +1 points for me! There was a huge Kingdom Hearts article in this edition, and it talks mostly about re:Coded and KH 3D. Yeah, KH: 3D, another goddamn spinoff. Why, Nomura, why? Why can't you just make a goddamn sequel to KH II? Would that really be so hard? I'm looking at the screenshots from the game (like, there's only four pictures) and I see Twilight Thorn in Traverse Town, Sora and Riku in Destiny Islands, and Riku running around Traverse Town, all in their KH I outfits. Yay for rehashed bosses... Anyway, in the interview, Nomura said that in the E3 trailer, the sky was "raining Soras" which makes my mind bleed. Does it connect with the KH I opening, how Sora saw himself falling from the sky? (Wasn't that a goddamn dream though?) And why do characters have to fall dramatically in KH games anyway...

Also, about re:Coded... Nomura, who the hell told you that you could turn KH into a puzzle game? I just cannot play puzzle games, puzzles are not fun. In most Pokemon games, whenever it came time to go down the Victory Road, I'd pull up an online walkthrough 'cause I sure as hell wasn't gonna sit around for hours solving strength puzzles... In Zelda games, it takes me forever to progress when there's some tricky puzzle, and I won't touch Professor Layton games with a ten foot pole. I don't want to solve puzzles, puzzles are not fun! So, I do not want to play a KH game where I must solve puzzles! This should be very simple logic, Nomura! Oh, and another thing - apparently, you don't play as Sora, but you play as a "Data Form" of Sora, who acts differently than Sora would. 'Kay, so... what's the point of playing as Sora? Why don't we just play as Roxas then - whoops, he's "dead."

The horrible thing is that one day I will eventually buy this game when it's gone down to like $20 at Gamestop, or something...
(That's what I did with KH: Days anyway.)

Blah, whatever. I'm going to go sit down and watch anime, and no one can stop me! Seriously, I've missed like 3+ episodes of Star Driver, and I need my weekly dosage of GALACTIC PRETTY BOI. And I'm also watching Togainu no Chi, which is this gay anime (literally) that has really bad animation. It's one of those "so bad it's good" sort of deals, except it's not really good but hilariously good but really bad... Lol, I don't know! ... I JUST LIKE WATCHING IT OKAY. . Like, everyone is a guy in this anime, and everyone secretly wants to bone the main dude, but no one ever does. DO IT ALREADY. BE A MAN. A MANLY MAN.

Okay, okay, I'm going! That's like, two blog posts in a day, I know, I'm horrible ... I JUST HAVE A LOT TO SAY.
Current Mood: amused
29 November 2010 @ 10:47 pm
i walk on these roads of useless ramblings  
I love how whenever I'm at all, I'll think of all the things I have to do when I get home, and then when I get home, I don't do jack. I have a test tomorrow in human development, and this is me not really giving a damn! Seriously, I really don't want to do anything anymore, I want senior year to be over and done with, I want my senior project to be magically finished, I want it to be Christmas so I can play FF XIII, Fable III, and all the other games I asked for... I also crave mass amounts of sugary, chocolatey food for some reason. These blueberry cereal bars are going to have to do.

Today, I had this crazy urge to start roleplaying again. I've had this urge since Saturday really, but hell if there's ever going to be a place for me to roleplay as Riku again. I talked to [personal profile] razzberree about it, and we came to the conclusion that there's literally nowhere for a KH RP to be had, so if we want one, we'd have to make our own. Then we started talking about all the characters we could be roleplaying in a KH RP... Man, I miss playing Roxas, Riku, Kadaj, Zack, Larxene, Denzel... Bah, is it really so hard for there to be one quality KH roleplay out there? We then started lulzing around with ideas for a roleplay, but when it came to actually starting the thread, I was totally lost as to how the thread should be started. Like, these sorts of things used to come easy for me, but I haven't roleplayed in about two months now, since late September, I'd say.

The last character I made for a roleplay was a man by the name of Zacharias Moliére. He was French, a former cop turned hairdresser who was very delicate and fragile in demeanor. He was the sort of person who'd break under harsh words, but would put up a tough facade if it meant standing strong in front of the people he loved. He was very athletic and was trained in ju-jitsu (as a form of martial arts, for his past police days) but despite everything, he was very breakable on the inside. He was also very paranoid and bit his nails frequently.

A good thread I had on that forum with him was Zach talking to a priest about the horrible things he'd done, and the priest, in the middle of the thread sort of looked up at him and asked, "I believe the only sins you've ever committed lay in your heart." Or something like that. Heck if I remember. It was a good thread! I left the board because of drama, though. I was making fun of this fourteen year old who got pissed at me because something I said made him lose "the game" or whatever. God, I can't stand people who make a bunch of fuss over nothing....

Ahh, but yeah, I have good memories with roleplaying in general, but it's like, really hard to get a thread going. And now that I've stopped roleplaying for so long, I'm not sure if I can do it again! I want to write more with Zach, I want to KH roleplay, I want to make a crapload of characters and just toss them in crazy situations... but have I forgotten how? I hope not! I really hope not... I think I just need to get my feet wet in the field again! But I'm not going back to roleplaying with the masses on Proboards, hell no. I used to be addicted to that shit. 

I also think I should take these urges and just learn to write fanfiction if I can't get a roleplaying fix. Maybe I'll make an AO3 account to place my fanfiction in... I've been ignoring my want to write fanfiction for a while now, but I don't think I'm going to any longer. I won't upload it to devART, no, that's just for original stuff only. I just need to learn to write more! If you can't roleplay, then write, Kiri, write! You haven't really picked anything to work on since you finished Nightingale, you should be ashamed of yourself!

Speaking of devART, it's almost time for my monthly blog update back over there... Man, what have I accomplished since the beginning of Nov? Nothing! Well, I finished Nightingale, but would I even have written that if [personal profile] razzberree wasn't so amped to see it? It just goes to show that I write better when I know someone will read it! That's why I love roleplaying - when you write, someone is anticipating your post with bated breath, and better yet, they'll respond to it!

Anyway, I need to sort out what the hell I'm doing with myself... It's not like I even have time to worry about all this shit either, senior project's due on the fifteenth of December!
Current Mood: rushed
18 November 2010 @ 08:23 pm
run away, run away, i'll attack  
When I set my mind to make something badass, I MAKE IT BADASS. I make it so badass that my eyes bleed from the badassery levels of my own creations! ... Alright, I'm going to shut up about it now, but long story short - I sat down and decided that I short really make some progress on my Lit/Art trade and suddenly it bloomed into a really sweet excerpt/rewrite.

But that's all I'm saying about it! If I hype it up too much, I'll just pull a Peter Molyneux and it won't be as cool when it's done - like a certain game in the Fable series that I could mention - so yeah, I'm just gonna say that I like where this is going. I took a break from it for now because ... well, to be honest, I know how I want it to end but I'm not sure how to get there. And I'm wondering if I can squeeze a super secret character in or not. (Kind of like how Ash sees Ho-Oh in the first episode of Pokemon? Like, a teaser for things to come...) Either way, I have the ending planned out (it's not really an ending since it's an excerpt but... I know where I should stop writing and actually upload the excerpt) so it's gonna have a neat finish no matter what, I just gotta get there.

I've been doing something different with this piece - I've been sketching it out at school and then adding layers onto its 'skeleton' if you will at home. (Yeah, I have time to do stuff like that at school - easy breezy senior year for the win.) I've gotta say, I really like this way of doing things. Once I get out of school, I think I'd be the sort to sit in coffee shops or librariesand just write out skeletons for things - it's a lot easier to sketch out how a story will go when you're out in public for some reason. I'm not sure why. Ugh, makes me so anxious to get a car, get a job, get money, just be independent, so I could just go out there and sit somewhere and write without being bothered my mom, dad, etc...

Speaking of libraries, I checked out Bag of Bones by Stephen King from the library the other day without much of a reason really. I just wanted something to read - I'm supposed to be reading Fellowship of the Ring but to be honest, it's proving really hard to catch my attention. So I checked out the book, right, and the librarian said that she had to stop reading it because of something graphic in it - but she wouldn't tell me what it was. I haven't read very far in it, but I'm kind of bored by this book too. A guy's wife dies, he starts talking about how much he misses her, etc... He was also an author (the... the guy in the book, not Stephen King - well he's an author too, but yeah) so he just talked on and on about how much books he wrote and the happy life he led and blah blah blah I'm bored! And I don't really need an anecdote about how every time you and your wife had sex. Christ - in the first chapter alone he talked about sex ever two pages, I swear. Why do books bore me so much nowadays?!

I just want a good book to read that isn't boring as hell! Is that too much to ask? There's a ton of books I want to read but our school library and city library sucks big time. I don't really read young adult fiction - all of that's cluttered up with shitty Twilight spinoffs and I don't really have any patience for that. I think for my birthday I'll just ask Dad to take me to Borders and I'll splurge my allowance on buying a ton of thick fantasy books that'll take me a while to get through. I haven't bought books since two summers ago, and that, to me, is way too long to go without a new book.

In unrelated news, I've been watched way too many Crisis Core videos lately. I have a bunch of songs stuck in my head, most of them by 30 Seconds to Mars - like "I'll Attack" and "This is War" - but "This is War" has been stuck in my head ever since I beat Dragon Age really. I updated my listography with a list of songs I really need to put on my iPod because of it - I'll swipe 'em later, but not now. Ugh, I can't wait for the weekend - I'm gonna finish my Pridea excerpt and then sit down with a bunch of frickin' video games and just start playing and goofing off. See, senior year can be easy if you let it be. Hopefully I can keep cruising on through the year without any more bumps in the road.
Current Mood: accomplished
01 November 2010 @ 09:21 pm
sit back, relax, sit back and relax again  
I feel like shit, or rather, I just feel really nervous and anxious right now. My intern teach wants me to cover a story about Marc Dorcean coming to our high school on Friday, and that's nice and everything, but when I called the freelancer about it, he kind of dodged the question and gave off a vibe that clearly read: "I don't really want to go if I don't have to." Eventually, I did talk him into it, but I realized afterwards - going to this concert won't really have any benefit for him. He can't use any of the information in an article for him to write and get paid for. Everyone expected me to do this by myself. Everyone wanted me to just go there and cover it. How did I get myself into this mess again...? Was it my advisor, that reminded my intern teach about this mess? I guess so - but really, it was me who decided to take on all these responsibilities. I could've just roughed it out in Spanish V Honors and be like normal kids, and not have an intern at all, but when I thought I was cutting corners, in the end I just made more work for myself.

So now I feel horrible. I didn't even think about the freelancer's feelings at all. He's done so much for me, and I forced him into such an awkward position. Wednesday I have to call him back (there's no school Tuesday) and just tell him that it's fine, we don't have to go. I'll ask if anything else is going on during the week. I'll be good. I won't do anything extra. That's fine with me. I never wanted to cover this guy in the first place! All I want to do is the minimum amount of work required to pass, and get the hell out of school. I never cared about the school and the goings-on in my old school, so why am I trying so hard to pretend like I care now? For my Latin teacher, for my intern teach, I guess - he did set me up with the freelancer, without him I wouldn't be anywhere. But when will this debt finally be paid? When will I be able to wiggle free of his grasp?

Today mom realized that there's no way we can even pay for four years of college at URI. It's better to just go to CCRI and do my general studies there, then transfer to URI after that's over and done with. I thought I might cry, when I heard that. I used to hold myself at such a high standard. How did it come to do? When everyone else talks about college, they all talk of going out of state, some out of the country, some to beautiful, marvelous campuses. And I'll still be here in little Rhody, going to a community college nonetheless, when I know I'm better than this! One of my good friends is applying to Brown for god's sake, and where I am heading? I'm headed down to a town of mediocrity. It's not even fair to say that - my mom was brilliant and she went to CCRI for nursing. But I guess it doesn't matter - I wasn't brilliant enough to get the math grade I needed for the scholarship I was applicable for, so this is the result. Life is not sunshine and rainbows and pretty college campuses. 

In other news, there's no school tomorrow! I plan on playing some Kingdom Hearts as soon as I wake up, and I'm gonna try my hardest not to worry about anything! I've been working so hard and being stressed out over stupid little things, now's my chance to finally kick back, right? Playing Kingdom Hearts, Phoenix Wright, writing, reading, napping... making pizza for lunch! Tomorrow's gonna be great! And tonight will be fun too! I've got loads of anime downloaded that I can sink my teeth into, games to play, books to read... Relax! Stop worrying about what you said to the freelancer! It's fine, everything will work out.

Today's the beginning of NaNoWriMo, but I'm looking forward to finally being able to join [community profile] origfic_bingo! Man, I just got my cubes yesterday, but now that bingo's starting up and I can join, I'm looking forward to that more! I applied for my card last night, so hopefully I'll get it soon and start working hard on it! I was hoping to bingo with a blackout, wouldn't that be cool? Why waste precious prompts, am I right?

Man, I love blogging, I always feel a little better afterwards! Don't worry, be happy!
Current Mood: melancholy
31 October 2010 @ 09:05 pm
thrills, chills, and research papers  
Halloween suddenly rolled around the corner without me even knowing it! I don't really celebrate it, to be honest - hell, I rarely celebrate anything unless it involves me getting presents. And even then, that's not me "celebrating," that's just me reaping the benefits of a holiday. There's nothing to reap from Halloween though - you don't get candy unless you dress up in some heinous costume and beg strangers, going from door to door... Too much work! Just buy candy from a store and eat it, huh? After Halloween, the price of candy gets slashed right in half too - so there, you can have your Hersheys bars and eat 'em, too! I guess I'm not very spirited when it comes to matters like this - we didn't even buy candy for Trick 'o Treaters this year. Mom says it's because she didn't want me sneaking my way into the candy, and I guess that's a good enough reason. Yeah, I can see myself gorging on candy if we had any of it in the house - lately, I've had an incurable appetite, I've always got the munchies!

Last night, I took two strawberry cereal bars and piled some ice cream on top of it while watching anime - Togainu no Chi, to be in fact. Man, little things like that, just having a snack while kicking back on a Saturday night and watching anime, I'll never forget it! To others, I guess little things like that are trivial memories, but me just having fun is the best thing I can ask for out of life, really. When I think back to my summer, all I did really was play video games, watch anime, and read manga, and hell, I had a great time! I read some really great titles (Akumetsu, Ikigami) watched some classic anime (Elfen Lied, Gantz) and played some fun as hell games (Tales of Vesperia, Harvest Moon: Animal Parade). Sure, maybe I wasn't very productive, but can't a girl just sit back and enjoy what she wants to do? Especially now that five days out of the seven day week I'm busy as all hell. Even today, a Sunday, I was busy! Writing my research report for Human Development wasn't an easy task, especially when your group members aren't very cooperative...

I am still recovering from my system restore. I just re-downloaded iTunes today, and I have to restart my music collection all over again. I've no idea where I should start first when it comes to this sort of thing, to be honest. Currently, I just have really awesome Soul Eater soundtracks from the OST, but hopefully my little music collection can grow big, just like it used to be before the restore. Man, I've been so much more paranoid about the Internet ever since the restore. I'm just lucky that things turned out okay, really. I still don't know what kind of virus infected it. All I know was that it was a program called shell.exe. How did it get on my computer? What did I do wrong? I still really don't know... All I can hope for is that it never happens again.

Also, before I forget, I finally got my cubes from [community profile] storycubes !
In which Kiri shows off her cubes and brainstorms )

Man, I can't even believe tomorrow's Monday already. Where does the weekend go?
Current Mood: busy
30 October 2010 @ 01:03 am
too cool, can't handle us  
Ahh, I'm so tired!

My cousin Enrique (Ricky) came over today, and wow, it was such a pleasant surprise! I hadn't talked to him in ages, and the only way I'd know about anything going on in his life was by hearing it from mom and dad, gossiping to each other. Anyway, he'd been doing fine, although I think he's going to drop out of school and go into the military. You know, I don't blame him for it. A tuition that's 100% paid for is definitely nothing to sneeze at! I'd do it, if I weren't such a wimp, if I was disciplined a little more... Anyway, we played some Wii games, like New Super Mario Bros and Super Mario Sluggers, and it felt just like old times.

Hard to believe that he's already twenty! It doesn't feel like he's so old, I'm taller than him and I'm only seventeen. I just hope that we can stay good friends like this. I don't really want him to go away either. He was going to go away for college (to New York) but mom talked him out of it, and told him that we'd support him if he ever needed someone to fall on. He's got his family, sure, but he wanted to leave to New York to get away from them. Sometimes I feel guilty, wondering, are we the only reason why he's still here? Did we accidentally chain him down? But I don't think that's true. I don't think we are important enough to chain him down here. There must've been another reason why he decided to stay.

When he left, I gave him a huge hug and told him to come over any time. Every day, people say nice things to others, without really ever meaning it. The types who ask how you are without even really caring to hear the full details really, the kind who say, "If you ever need anything, I'll be there," without ever really meaning to offer you help and protection. But when I told him to come over any time, I really meant it, I really did. I don't know how I could've emphasized it, but I just hope he takes up on the offer. He is probably one of the few members of my extended family that I really care about, and my heart goes out to him.

It's been a long day. I've been redownloading old programs and I've decided not to worry about my anime collection too much. Right now I'm just downloading the newest episodes that I need to see, and I guess I'll rebuild my collection from there. I also plan to get more active in devtArt this weekend, and apply to more groups, even though I already requested to join one (Live-Love-Write) and I still haven't been accepted. I also have to call the freelancer (I was supposed to do that Thursday...) to talk about the Hatian musician coming to my school on Friday and talk about possibly covering it, and put a serious dent in my human development essay. So much to do, but today, I'm not worrying about a thing. Go with the flow, that's what I say.
Current Mood: sleepy
27 October 2010 @ 11:22 pm
reluctant prodigal daughter  
Dreamwidth never saves my drafts! My computer just had to restart because of some virus it found, and I figured, Well, maybe Dreamwidth will save my post. Nope, it didn't. I don't know why I thought it would, 'cause it never does, but whatever. Let's try this again, from the top, shall we?

Today just kind of spiraled out of control. I was sleepy as all hell this morning in advisory, and my advisory teacher decided to tell my Latin teacher that he was "overworking me." Is that true? Eh, not really. I mean, I haven't even touched that Way to Go RI script since I last mentioned it, but I'm equipped with loads of excuses why that is, just in case he asks. I'm not sure if my advisory teacher was trying to get me in trouble or not. but he kind of laughed and said, "Well, I'll just have to give her more work to do then!" Thanks a lot, miss.

It turned out for the best, though. Apparently, a Hatian musician named Marc Dorcean is coming to East Providence High School on November 5th, and I'm supposed to be covering the story. It works out well, because my senior project deals with how to properly interview someone so that you get the best results, so my Latin teacher is trying to see if I can get an interview with him. There's going to be over 700 students attending this thing, some of them are even coming from New York to see him! I'm a little nervous. Well, very nervous! Why does everyone think I have the potential to cover something so big? They all believe in me, so I've got no choice but to do my best, really.

I saw the freelancer today, and we went to a town council meeting in Seekonk. I told everyone it was a little more exciting than the East Providence town council meetings, but that's a lie, really. All town council meetings are pretty clear cut and a little dry, but I think they're very important to go to. And I feel important when I go, like I'm fulfilling a duty to my community to go and cover all these things that are happening. Well, right now I'm not covering anything, just taking notes, but once I prove myself with the Marc Dorcean article, maybe we can get things rolling.

During Latin today, my guidance counselor came in, and my Latin teacher urged me to tell her what I'd been working on. I'm never one to stutter, but for some reason, I just couldn't get my words out! I just wanted to tell her that I was working on a video tour of Way to Go RI, but for some reason, I couldn't express it properly. It was so embarrassing, but I guess she got the message clear enough. For some reason, she figured that I'd like the email address of the Way to Go RI creator, and gave it to me, in the hopes that I'd email her and... well, I don't know what she expects me to do with it, really. It's just another dish to add to my overflowing plate. And I'm not even working on that video anyway! I've been doing absolutely nothing. Nada
Current Mood: dorky