I love how whenever I'm at all, I'll think of all the things I have to do when I get home, and then when I get home, I don't do jack. I have a test tomorrow in human development, and this is me not really giving a damn! Seriously, I really don't want to do anything anymore, I want senior year to be over and done with, I want my senior project to be magically finished, I want it to be Christmas so I can play FF XIII, Fable III, and all the other games I asked for... I also crave mass amounts of sugary, chocolatey food for some reason. These blueberry cereal bars are going to have to do.
Today, I had this crazy urge to start roleplaying again. I've had this urge since Saturday really, but hell if there's ever going to be a place for me to roleplay as Riku again. I talked to razzberree
about it, and we came to the conclusion that there's literally nowhere for a KH RP to be had, so if we want one, we'd have to make our own. Then we started talking about all the characters we could be roleplaying in a KH RP... Man, I miss playing Roxas, Riku, Kadaj, Zack, Larxene, Denzel... Bah, is it really so hard for there to be one quality KH roleplay out there? We then started lulzing around with ideas for a roleplay, but when it came to actually starting the thread, I was totally lost as to how the thread should be started. Like, these sorts of things used to come easy for me, but I haven't roleplayed in about two months now, since late September, I'd say.
The last character I made for a roleplay was a man by the name of Zacharias Moliére. He was French, a former cop turned hairdresser who was very delicate and fragile in demeanor. He was the sort of person who'd break under harsh words, but would put up a tough facade if it meant standing strong in front of the people he loved. He was very athletic and was trained in ju-jitsu (as a form of martial arts, for his past police days) but despite everything, he was very breakable on the inside. He was also very paranoid and bit his nails frequently.
A good thread I had on that forum with him was Zach talking to a priest about the horrible things he'd done, and the priest, in the middle of the thread sort of looked up at him and asked, "I believe the only sins you've ever committed lay in your heart." Or something
like that. Heck if I remember. It was a good thread! I left the board because of drama, though. I was making fun of this fourteen year old who got pissed at me because something I said made him lose "the game" or whatever. God, I can't stand people who make a bunch of fuss over nothing....
Ahh, but yeah, I have good memories with roleplaying in general, but it's like, really hard to get a thread going. And now that I've stopped roleplaying for so long, I'm not sure if I can do it again! I want to write more with Zach, I want to KH roleplay, I want to make a crapload of characters and just toss them in crazy situations... but have I forgotten how? I hope not! I really hope not... I think I just need to get my feet wet in the field again! But I'm not going back to roleplaying with the masses on Proboards, hell no. I used to be addicted to that shit.
I also think I should take these urges and just learn to write fanfiction if I can't get a roleplaying fix. Maybe I'll make an AO3 account to place my fanfiction in... I've been ignoring my want to write fanfiction for a while now, but I don't think I'm going to any longer. I won't upload it to devART, no, that's just for original stuff only. I just need to learn to write more! If you can't roleplay, then write, Kiri, write! You haven't really picked anything to work on since you finished Nightingale, you should be ashamed of yourself!
Speaking of devART, it's almost time for my monthly blog update back over there... Man, what have I accomplished since the beginning of Nov? Nothing! Well, I finished Nightingale, but would I even have written that if razzberree
wasn't so amped to see it? It just goes to show that I write better when I know someone will read it! That's why I love roleplaying - when you write, someone is anticipating your post with bated breath, and better yet, they'll respond to it!
Anyway, I need to sort out what the hell I'm doing with myself... It's not like I even have time to worry about all this shit either, senior project's due on the fifteenth of December!